Yeah yesterday was the first day of school. Honestly I’m not too happy about it. It’s not that I “hate” school, its that I have to be somewhere full of people who think they know me, there’s drama, and just too many people to avoid. There’s people I’m so nervous to see, what am I honestly going to say to them? 

I don’t even know what to expect from this year. I have no idea where to start. Not to mention ex’s you’ll possibly bump into; you know, the ones where you don’t know where you guys stand? It’s like what do you even say to them if that happens!? 

Lets just say I’m experiencing stress overload on things that don’t matter. 

New Chapters?

I guess all I wanted was change. And moving was the perfect chance to start all over. 

What I thought I had here was real, it wasn’t. It was my excuse to not accept change, and to have hope that there was something out there that would hold onto me so I wouldn’t leave.

Why does everyone fear change? And that includes me. 

What’s there to fear? Because of change something amazing could happen to you, or me, or anyone for that matter.

Moving was my opportunity to experience something new, and reinvent myself. And I let that chance escape, Now I’m locked into here, for god knows how long. 

Everything happens for a reason right? I guess I should just make the best out of the next few years until I graduate high school.

I’m starting to lose sight of who really matters to me. Right now, all I want to do is start completely from scratch; then again, it’s probably to most difficult thing I could do at this time. I don’t know where to go or what to do. 

What do you do when you realize the friends you spend every waking moment with, aren’t really your friends?

This Sunday consisted with the usual. Basically getting prepared for the week ahead. 

I decided to make some muffins. My fave recipe is a banana apple muffin recipe by Cassey Ho. They honestly smell like cinnamon and nutmeg heaven!

There isn’t any added sugar, and they are fairly healthy at the same time. THEY TASTE SO AMAZING! ^_^

Recipe Link:

Finally home after a long week of fun-filled days with my friends. Although I do have to admit I am a bit homesick.

Tuesday, my friends and I went out for a night of bowling!
… lets just say gutter balls are my thing…

Thursday was a very successful day of shopping.

And well today, we tie-dyed some t-shirts, blabbed about music, and pretty much watched Orange Is the New Black all day(:
If you aren’t already watching it… Well you should. I promise it’s addicting.